How is everyone doing? It’s almost the new year! It’s crazy how quickly this year flew by… I know that everybody says that. But it really is. It was fast, but it was also- to me, very very slow. I was pregnant for most of the year- all the way until July 4th when I gave birth to my little bundle of adorableness and oh so much joy. It was really difficult being pregnant for me, because everything was just so new, I could not have imagined or expected anything like the process of pregnancy, labor and delivery, and of course becoming a new mother. It happened very quickly, but also took a long awaited process. I am sure those mothers who are out there understand exactly what I mean.
I also moved out of my parent’s house into a cute little in-law suite and that was also a huge step for me as well. It has brought new challenges, and new delighting joys. As a young girl, I always envied boys because they would never have to suffer through periods and childbirth, but now that I am comfortable and happy in my skin, not only with my gender but my race, ethnicity, personality, appearance… I can say that going through those challenges, as painful as they may be mentally, emotionally and physically, you are able to look back on those times and see how far you’ve come, and how much you’ve developed, as well as just how strong you can be. Those are the moments that define you. Those are the moments that allow you to grow.
In 2014, I realized that it’s important to stay true to who you are. Growing up, it was an important goal for me to have a great career path and study hard in school. I have an amazing job that I truly enjoy with the luxury of working at home and not having to commute. I absolutely love it. I’ve even gotten two raises in one year, and moved up in a few positions, which I am so truly thankful for. I didn’t know how it happened, but I landed the perfect job not only for me, but for my situation in the moment. With a new baby at home and my significant other always working, I would deal with so much anxiety having to leave her with a babysitter. I don’t want somebody else changing her diapers and getting headaches over her cries and screams. I don’t want somebody else to catch her first steps or first words, and I don’t want somebody else feeding her from a bottle when I choose to breastfeed exclusively. Those are my struggles, my pleasures, my challenges, and my joys. And I am extremely thankful that I have the opportunity and privilege to do all those things from the comfort of my own home.
This year, I have truly delved into the world of makeup. Sure, I have had a makeup addiction in the past but now it’s in full force. I’ve joined the beauty community on Instagram, @stay.beautifful and also I don’t have a great deal of followers or much recognition, I enjoy the simple pleasure of checking my feed and seeing such beautiful work and artistry each and every day. I’ve discovered several male makeup artists like @mannymua733, Goss Makeup Artist, and more. I love seeing posts from my favorite Instagrammers like @lustrelux, @desimakeup, @anastasiabeverlyhills, etc. I think that makeup is not only such a beautiful release, but it gives you the chance to be somebody one day, and a totally different person the next day. There are no limits, no boundaries, and no rules. People may try to make rules up in beauty, but they are just personal techniques. Everybody is free to do what they want with their makeup skills and talents, and I find that so incredibly awe-inspiring.
I think that makeup has the power to change somebody’s mood along with their appearance. You can use makeup to bring out your natural features, or to transform into somebody unrecognizable. You can use it to mimic celebrity looks and play around with colors, or use the same ones day after day. I absolutely love what you can do with one palette, a few brushes, and a face. I’m thankful for the beauty community that I’ve found, and I’m glad I can wake up and sneak half an hour or an hour (if I’m lucky) when the baby is asleep to just sit and have some me-time, and get ready for the day. Even if I’m not really going out, it’s an instant mood booster, and it allows me to challenge myself and step out of my comfort zone each day with a bold lip, or a dramatic eye, or thick brows. Whatever you wish, you can achieve.
Last but not least, I am thankful for the family and friends who have stood by me through these treacherous several months that was 2014. This year definitely was my hardest year, hands down. It completely kicked my butt. I felt so hopeless, lost and alone so many times, and I’ve felted confused, trapped and insignificant. But I’ve also experienced the feeling of empowerment, of true love and joy, of gratefulness and of compassion- in times where I truly needed it. I thank those who have stood by me through my absence of not always being there as a friend because of my newfound responsibilities, and those who continue to support me through the hardships. Your actions never go unnoticed, and are never unaccounted for.
I wish you- the person reading this post- the most wonderful 2015 there could possibly be. And instead of setting New Year Resolutions, just set some personal short-term and long-term goals, as resolutions seem to fly out the window as the morning of January 2nd comes along. Focus on bettering yourself, on creating the best version of you there possible can be. Because at the end of the day, the only person you can change is yourself.
Stay up, stay smiling and stay beau(tiff)ul. Cheers to an amazing 2015!